Lacking...

A Job.

Yesterday my dad lost his job. He didn't seem too surprised, what with economy and the company being small. They let a lot of people go yesterday. I can tell it's really brought him down...

Insperation

It's hard, god dangit. Writing is really hard. I've plowed through writers' block that blocked my path (for roughly a month and a half D: ) and now it's starting to get fun :] It's still a pain, what with school in the way. Not for long though, right? :)
And then there's art. Haven't drawn much in a while. I've got one picture of my character, Jayson (or Jason; I'm trying to deside how to spell it ^^; ) that's been a bitch because he's on a swingset and it's in a park. With wood chips. I had no clue drawing so many of them would be so hard! It's such a pain; I'm only about 1/3 done drawing 'em, too D:

Confidence and Beauty

But you already knew that... I'm getting a hair cut next monday, and I'm thinking I'd chop of an inch and a half. It doesn't sound like much, but to me, it does. I'm nervous. I loathe change, even if it is self-induced.
A book report Tuesday, too, a day after a haircut. I've never liked getting haircuts during the week; I like getting them on the weekend, so they have a day or two to grow out. But I guess it doesn't really matter. I always (no, really, everyday) wear my hair up in a ponytail, so no one will probably even notice. ):


Well, there's my vent. Sorry; just had to do that :)

~DarkWingedWolf13
I'll give you more info on Jayson/Jason here (you know, someday :P )

Contacts (Let The Bodies Hit The Floor)

Listening to Bodies by Drowning Pool. For some reason it's adictive to me X3

Well, I got a new perscription for my contacts, but they still seem too strong -_-;
I wore them for, like, 6 hours today. My eyes huurrrttt.
I can get them in and out pretty easily now, ei: like a normal person.

I'm writing right now, working on this one part where Crow has dreams about Seagull. The dreams are like her subconcous mind trying to tell her things she wouldn't figure out on her own. The previous one was Seagull trying to convince her to test out her wings and practice flying again. That didn't end too well... she ended up falling into a black abyss XD

Later
~DarkWingedWolf13

My Eyes Are Bleeding (From The Fear That's Inside)

Yesterday I went to my eye doctor and I tried out contacts. It took me half an hour to get the right one in and then fifteen minutes to put the left one in. I am so blind, I have to wear my reading glasses 24/7 and then I also have distance glasses.

While I was at the eye doctors, I heard my doctor talking to one of the nurses in the other room, saying that if I couldn't get the contacts in in the next ten or so minutes, then she should.
Personally, that was one of my greatest fears (at the moment)
People touching me = scary
Strangers touching me = kind of scary
Strangers touching me and holding an object to jam into my eye = *brain overload from fright*

I knew that if I couldn't get them in, no one would. So I tried really hard to get them in, my motivasion being : don't let that bastard (doctor) win. You must do this! Get that contact in NOW.

I managed to get the right one in, and then fifteen minutes later the left one. Started to get a little worried, though, because an eight year old boy had them in and way freaking out because he couldn't get them out...

Anyway, doctor saw me, looked at my eyes, then sent me back out to take them out and practice putting them in again (F---! Like I'd be able to do that again!)
So they told me to take the contact off by sqeezing it, having it pucker up, and then pulling it out. (Did I mention when the lady explained how to put them in {"Have a BIG EYE!"} that all that went through my mind was 'oh shit, I so can not do this". The same feeling came back when I had to get them out)
I tried for like, five minutes, then looked at my watch again. 7 o'clock. Now, I hadn't eaten a thing since noon, so I was pretty freakin' hungry. Plus, I had to take a shower.
Instead, I slid the contact over to like, the opposite side of my tear duct and pulled it out. Hurt, but I couldn't think of any other way.

Anywho, I'm wearing the distance contacts now. Took forty-five mins to put them in. Annoying, but I did it :)
Now I need to get them out X-x
Help.... me....

Seriously, tips on contacts much appreceated. My eyes feel like they're bleeding. Plus I'm freaking out when it comes to taking them out @____@


~DWW13