SIN

Thought it was a joke
Just for fun
Played along
Just for fun
Chatted with one boy
Just for fun
We toyed with another boy's heart
Just for fun
Like fate I be,
Just for fun
We pretended to hook up
Just as pretend
I talked with the other, saying I loved him
Just as pretend
He hooked us up over a chat
We laughed behind his back
Just for fun
Just to mess with his head
So why do I feel I'm
Better off dead?
Why is this knot tightening in my stomach?
When just for fun
He told me that that boy said
'Great, you got to hook up with her,
and I got stuck just being the guy friend'
Toyed with his heart, I fear
This can't just be a joke
Isn't fun anymore
I talked with that boy
I thanked him for being with me
When I shed tears
It wasn't for fun
I was serious
But I don't feel that way
Don't 'like him' like that
But I'm afraid
Like fate I've toyed with that boy's heart
And cut it open with a blade
To expose the pusling veins
And I think that
He likes me more than a friend
For a moment I wonder
'Are they joking with me?
Toying with me just like we did to him?'
I don't think so
My gut says 'No,
You cut open his heart
You expose the pulsing vein
the weakness of a boy's heart
when he likes a girl like this'
Such a sin
Such a sin
Why did I let him convince me
To fuck with his mind
Just for fun
Not for fun
Fun for one?
Can't say so
My heart says no
Such a sin
Such a sin
What have I done to him?



(Can you see the difference? Bold is my friend, just joking. Italic is boy whose mind and heart we fucked with) Just thoughts, no, feelings. My fingers move, I feel this, but betwen my fingers and my brain, there is no thinking. Only movement. Maybe I should have been thinking ten minutes ago. This doesn't feel right. Damn you facebook and chat speaks and status up dates. Dammit. Dammit....


~Darkwingedwolf13


I'M A FUCKIN BITCH

Homecoming Dance

Been a while (But what else is a change besides my persistance to update my blog??)

Homecoming Dance last night (our team lost the homecoming game something like the 5th year in a row. FML for them)
It blowed at the beginning...
But the last half hour was bitchen.
Met one of my brother's semi friends who seems pretty awesome :)

My hair was a bitch and wouldn't stay straight... I used enough products that I'd advise people not to smoke around me too. FRICK